the wonders of writing..

Instead of doing my reflection and lesson plan for the week..I choose to write down oh supposedly type down my thoughts here. If only I can write my reflections smoothly without my mind wandering somewhere and writers' block keep murdering my mood to be critically involve with my reflections. One of my buddy even said that why don't you just look at your reflections at the mirror. stupid jokes but makes me smile. 

I dont know what happen to me but I kinda lost my way half through my months of practicum. Probably because of the overwhelming workload and the kids. Let me tell you about the kids...Just imagine you in a west Beverly high school where all of the kids came from a wealthy family. The kids in my school are so arrogant and bossy and some of them even look at the teachers like they some kind of alien from outer space. and they even talk like  the cast in Mean girl. Their english superb than most of the teacher in the school including me.Once i was laughed at becoz I pronounce the word sheets to shit (which is not much different). I scold the boy and said that he shouldnt laugh that he should correct my mistake. So, I was a bit like the joker in the class, just that, I was laughed at because of my pronunciations.But somehow I managed to get through all this by showing them who's the boss. I am their teacher and I am the one who controlling them.!

I think I falling a step or two because I was lazy. I admit that I am lazy. I am lazy and demotivated to do my work because the fact that I have plenty of time doing that. I dont have anyone here, I dont have syafiq or even anyone to go out with. So, why bother to do all the stuff when u have plenty of time in your pocket. People couldnt even care less if I finish my work or not.